Today marks a day I have been dreading about. Today was the day I had to tell the teacher I volunteer for that I would be quitting. I never thought that volunteering in a classroom would bring out so many emotions in me. I've never been the type of person who gives hugs or cares a great deal about others, unless they are my friends. That sounds really terrible, but I think that is part of being a teenager. We can be self centered at times and that's ok. I started volunteering at an elementary school this past year because I really wanted to look well rounded when I started applying for college. I was expecting to help children but I wasn't expecting to fall in love with them. The students that come to my room are all so great. There are some that do make me raise my eyebrow but even those kids have a special place in my heart. I knew eventually I had to quit, but after being surrounded by so much love everyday I knew I had to stay a little while more. I was suppose to be done with volunteering back in December, but I made the commitment to stay for another semester. I just loved the classroom environment so much!
This past month hit my like a ton of bricks. I recently found out that my schedule isn't compatible with my everyday life this semester. There were too many conflicts with timing and I just wouldn't be able to make the time for it anymore. Today I walked in to class and broke down. I walked into the craft closet with a box of Kleenex and cried. I could just imagine telling the kids I wouldn't be coming in anymore and them questioning why. I changed my schedule once and let's just say a few kids began to cry. When I came out the students were worried. They showered me with hugs and told me how pretty I was. It made me so happy that I began to cry again. I never thought that these kids would impact my life so much. I may help them with their reading and writing but they have helped me become such a better person. I can never repay them. I wish I could just stay around forever and become their own personal Miss Frizzle. That would be a dream. We could learn everything together and just have fun. It makes me so sad to leave but I guess all journeys must come to an end.
On a side note, I am really considering minoring in education. YAY!
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